Always The Friend, Never The Girlfriend

I've been talking to this dude for months now, since April or May I honestly don't remember. If we were to celebrate an anniversary I would not remember because I wasn't trying to like him to begin with. My intentions were to bag, mess with, and discard and I'm sure those were his intentions too. HOWEVER! He caught feelings and unfortunately I caught feelings too. This would be so much less complicated and annoying had feelings not got in the way. So we've been acting like a couple and shxt except we're not exclusive. It's legit a relationship without the official title of boyfriend and girlfriend. I mean at first I didn't care because a title isn't everything but then again I like the title of the girlfriend. I think every girl does even if she fronts and says she doesn't. I was watching something on the tele the other day and I had a revelation. I am the back pocket bxtch. It's alright to treat me like a girlfriend and mess around but you don't wanna commit. I refuse to play this position again and to be honest it's my fault. I'm always the friend but never the girlfriend [some cases differ]and it kills me because I don't understand what is so hard in just saying 'Yo Slim be my girlfriend' I WON'T SAY NO BECAUSE CLEARLY I LIKE YOUR BXTCH-ASS! You just hold me in your back pocket hoping I'll still be there. Well muhfxcka a skinny bxtch gotta eat and I am looking for food elsewhere. This is why I hate feelings, they make you do stupid shxt.

I have college stuff to finish...Slim OUT!

*update* well...it's done now. You win some, you lose some. Slim tends to lose *sad face* Boys ain't shit but hoes and tricks - MTTM