Don't Get Excited.

That title was chose for two reasons:

1) It's the weekend and I have found some down time to blog so if I do like a million [a milli a milli a milli a milli] posts tonight/this morning it is because junior year has taken a break. smh.



2) This topic isn't exactly fun but hell I feel like pontificating! Hehe you like that word right? Word, son, word.



The topic for this post is *drum rolls*

RACISM! *crowd cheers*

Aren't you excited?



Well I found this blog on wordpress that is no longer running [which I am a little upset about btw] that has my brain working. The blog in general is hilarious and so was this post but the topic is serious.



The blogger started out with subtle racism so I will begin with that. There is nothing I hate more than subtle racism...like nothing. How can you be friends with me but not like me? Paradox much? Maybe just a little. My first indication of subtle racism occured when I was 7 or 8 running up and down Rockaway Parkway in summer bliss and my friend Stephon came and told me a story. He had asked the resident Puerto Rican if she wanted to be his girlfriend and her reply was: "Sorry I can't date you because you're black". DISCLAIMER RIGHT QUICK:: Stephon was about 15 or 16. We were friends because the block was close and I was a bomb ass youngin who could roll with the big dogs. ANDD his mom was my landlord and my mom taught him when he was younger so we kinda have a binding to friendship in a way:: EN-TEE-WAYS! I was simply shocked by that statement. In my little 8 year old mind I was wondering how can this girl be our friend and not want to be the girlfriend of one of us. As I got older and began reading & watching documentaries with my mother, I realized that there is a lot of that going on. Black people are good enough to be friends in certain cultures but once it is time for relationship status we are the 'untouchables'but whites are accepted. Indians, Asian, Hispanic, White, hell even some moronic ass Black folk are guilty. The latter say it is because of their parent's traditional views but some use that as a cover. Black folk who live by this 'black get back' lifestyle state it as blunt as it can be "I want my children to have lighter skin and good hair". If you are naturally attracted to lighter skinned people, there is no problem. If you are simply not attracted to black people, go right ahead. The thing that makes my blood boil is that people honestly will spaz if their child or grandchild is involved with a black person. Indians, however, I will never understand because they are not exactly light bright themdamnselves! Hispanics are another group I will never understand. Blacks and Hispanics are grouped so much in life and yet some will never date a black person because "oh he/she is too black", "I don't want some napps in my baby hair", oh and my favorite "my grandmother will kill me if I bring a black person home". The last point may be true but I have found out that some people use that as a cover for their own bigotry. Just say "It's because you are black" and I will be fine. I don't know where I went with this section because I did just rant and lose my train of thought but whatever. Anyway, black people with this sentiment...unless they are truly attracted to whites, asians, hispanics, etc....I believe are the stupidest people in the world. This leads me into my next topic: internal racism.



Part One: Light Bright vs The Darkie



"I don't date dark chicks/guys!"

"Oh you know the light skinned girl always win"

"I would take you because you aren't as dark as she is"

"Dark skinned girls are ugly"

"I want my kids to be light with good hair"

An interesting one::

"I don't want my kids to be as light as me"

OH and my personal favorite ::

"You're pretty for a dark girl"

THE FXCKING END.



Okay I lied, this pisses me off more than anything else in the world.

All those are things I have heard in my presence or have been said to my face. It really irks me because although I may not be as dark or as light as the next person this should never be phrases uttered by anyone in the black community. Why you ask? Because it is bad enough that literally EVERY SINGLE RACE on the earth can't stand us, why must we do it to ourselves?



Phrase #1: "I don't date dark chicks/guys"

Okay I am fine with it but the curious person that I am would like an explaination from you light or dark...I end up regreting that later on . That sentence is usually followed by some ignorant statements that makes me want to skin that fool right then and there. One thing that irks me is that the darkest person would be like "He/She is too dark for me"...are you serious? You have the same skin tone, hell half the time the girl is lighter than that person! It's like how can you discriminate against who looks like you but get mad when the light skinner girl/boy shuts you down because you are too dark for them, which is equally wrong. Doesn't feel nice to have a taste of your own medecine huh? I personally don't care if you don't want me because I am too dark for you, there are plenty of others who do.



Phrase #2: "You know the lighter skinned girl always wins"

So the fxck what if she does? You're dumbass is probably why. My mother has told me from the beginning that the world is baised when it comes to the light skinned girl and that dark skinned girl. In fifth grade she told me straight up "Kianna may have it easier in life because she is lighter than you. Boys may fawn over her and hell she may even get a job just because she is lighter than you but never, ever let that stop you from doing what you want in life. You may have to work harder but in the end that hard work will pay off. You are smarter, more beautiful, and have the ablities and more to progress further in this world and don't let anyone tell you otherwise". Those words have stuck with me and though some may find them unfitting to tell a child, she was telling me the truth. My mother is light skinned herself. I see things like this happen all the time but because my mother has conditioned me from a young age it really doesn't phase me until it is shoved in my face. When this fool I know had the nerve to say "Well you know the lighter skinned girl always wins" I had a mind to knock him out. Once again this bastard was not light bright himdamnself and he is one of those "I don't date girls darker than me, the lighter girl is always beautiful even if she looks like a dog" fxckers. If a light skinned person had told me that I would have been equally upset because it is mindsets like that, that allow the lighter girl to win. She could be dumb as a rock, look like a dinosaur foot and yet she will win simply because she is lighter. Now I am not saying that goes for every light skinned girl because I know some gorgeous and intelligent light females [my momma is one] but the mindset of the "lighter girl always wins" is crippling. Even without my mother bringing it to my attention in fifth grade [I had a problem with my light skinned bestie at the time] I would have been exposed to this later on in life and I think I would have made me insecure. "She is lighter than you" So is that piece of bread, what's your point? I may have to work harder but I know that my work is not in vain. Ugh once again I may have contradicted myself but idc stfu lol.



Phrase #3: "Dark skinned girls are ugly"

I then proceed to ask why like a dummy and I get "Because they are. Her skin is too dark. Look at her!". I've heard males and females say this [females about both dark skinned males & females] and it still confuses me. I think Alek Wek is beautiful, her smile, her smooth skin, and chocolate tone are just amazing to me. Others, however, see her dark skin and say she is ugly without looking at her features. If you think this way about a person who is of a darker skin tone then wtf do you think about me? Do you think I am ugly? Which leads me to one of my favorites...



Phrase#4: "You're pretty for a dark girl"

...And all you other cat throwing shots at dark girls, you only get half a bar- Fuck yall niggas.

[I'm listening to Takeover so hush lol]. My reply? "You sure are hideous for a light person" *smiles and walks away*.





Phrase #5: "I want my kids to be light with good hair"
What is so good about being light skinned with good hair? What the fxck is good hair??? HAIR IS DEAD CELLS!!! AIN'T SHIT GOOD ABOUT YOUR CELLS DYING! Apparently they want their child to have an easier life. I don't know about you but being a mocha chocolate sista myself with "bad" hair...life seems pretty nice so far.

Phrase #6: "I don't want my kids to be as light as me"
Now that one threw me. I had to admit I felt a lil happy to hear for once someone doesn't have a problem with dark skinned people. I have heard the "I want chocolate babies" from darker females but not from a male. I just found that interesting.


Well I have many other topics on my mind.
I started this nights ago and I don't feel like talking about it anymore.
lol
for a skinny heifer I get bored easily, leave me be.